the X factor –=Every Little Thing =–

nIcE nIcE song!!! The lyrics, quite simple ya, translate into chinese, 就是那种『好想说爱你』的感觉吧～～

Enigma - Boum-Boum

 
[Computerized voice]

My heart goes Boum-Boum-Boum
Every time I think of you
Inside it’s Boum-Boum-Boum
Lost control what shall I do?

‘Cause I wanna be your lover
Till the end of our lives
I could never miss again
These loving eyes

Ohhhh Boum-Boum-Boum

My heart goes Boum-Boum-Boum
Every time I think of you
I feel that Boum-Boum-Boum
No control of what I’ll do

Simplicity, complexity, oh, what a tragedy
Reality, insanity, strange normality
Incredible, untouchable, but just visual
And I want you, just you

Ohhhh Boum-Boum

[Computerized voice]

Ohhhh

My heart goes Boum-Boum-Boum
When any mind is touching you
I’m going Boum-Boum-Boum
Only light inside my gloom

‘Cause I wanna be your lover (’Cause I wanna be your lover)
Till the end of our lives (Till the end of our lives)
I could never miss again
These loving eyes

Boum-Boum

[Computerized voice]

[x4]
(My heart goes)
(My heart goes Boum-Boum-Boum)

[Computerized voice fades out]

Working late again tonite… so tired.

Now it’s showing the brazil vs jap game. im doing the working-cum-watching thing again… *____*||| sianzz… cant concentrate on the game.

one thing turns me off is the brazil jersey today… they wearing yellow top with white shorts n socks instead of the traditional blue one… the combination of the two colors looks so odd n disgusting…

oh ya, for someone’s info, Inamoto got start in the 1st 11 to play

brazil din play as well as expected. but but hopefully it will be better n better all the way to the final!!! but my another favourite team france seems to be in a not so good situation… pray pray, may they get qualified to the final 16~~

*** Forgot to add in this last nite: these days working day n nite, actually becoz im doing the project for company’s France sites, hehehehe

This song is by Sylvester Sim, Singapore Idol 2004 1st Runner-Up. Though i dun quite like his style, i like this song a lot…

SLY - 所以

想到了第一次见到你 你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到我自己偷偷地想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你 感觉我并没那么高兴
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽 让我作出不可思议的事情
我只知道我要看你开心
我什么都愿意 只要能够靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里 因为我想要你开心
我知道我会辛苦也会难过 但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨 不管你在哪里

我知道 你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我在静静守著你 每一次看他紧紧拉著你手 我眼泪不停地流
我只好默默退后 我什么都没说 静静忍著痛

想到了第一次见到你 你有一种奇怪的魔力
我感觉到我自己偷偷地想靠近你
想到了第二次见到你 感觉我并没那么开心
因为我发现自己和你的距离

这是爱情还是你太美丽 我像是著了迷 只渴望能靠近你

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里 因为我只想要你高兴
我知道我会辛苦也会难过 但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨 不管你在哪里

我知道 你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我在静静守著你 每一次看他紧紧拉著你手 我眼泪不停地流
我只好默默退后 我什么都没说 静静忍著痛

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里 因为我只想要你高兴
我知道我会辛苦也会难过 但我什么都愿意
不在乎狂风暴雨 不管你在哪里

我知道 你和你的男孩有多么的甜蜜
所以我在静静里守著你 每一次看他紧紧拉著你手 我眼泪不停地流
我只好默默退后 我什么都没说 静静忍著痛

Sooooooo much work to do…

Yesterday was burnt and so is today. wuuuuu…… my weekend ya…

I even din have time to watch the WC matches. The most i could do is to keep the tv on while im working on my pc, and take a glance on the screen when i hear the exciting shouts from the tv commentator, which means either there is a goal / a stunning shoot or something nasty has happenned.

Last nite worked until 4 (shall i say this morning 4?) and forced myself to wake up at 10. This afternoon felt damn so tired n sleepy. but still need to struggle v hard to stay “alive” to keep on working.

A few things i did to make myself awake n happy enough to work are:

1. Turn on the hip-hop music in my iTune, VERY LOUD!!! and and, follow the beats n shake my head n body…
2. Drink tea, coffee n whatever drinks can give me some coffeine…
3. Drink a lot of water so that i need to get myself out of the chair to the the toilet v often…
4. …
5. …

Later NO MATTER HOW, i will watch the brazil match. Here i say “watch”, it’s to watch, NOT to “watch” while working~~

oh ya, juz now b4 the 2nd half of japan’s match started, tv was showing the fans in the stadium. and i saw a japanese couple holding a v small piece of paper on which they write “Honeymooner” and draw two red hearts~~ soooo cuuuute!!! HAHAHAH~~

Last night got company dinner at the Bather’s, downstairs of the office building. Haven’t been there for a while aready, around 3-4 weeks.

Free flow beer, guitar & music, made me a bit high, errrr… f**king high actually…

okay lah, not that drunk… at least i was awake enough to get into the mrt and to walk from mrt station to home.

Not bad, not bad. Once a while to get high n forget about all the things & all the unhappiness, temporarily…

This morning, got a bit hang over. then feel a little bit guilty…

coz…

actually was planning to clear some backlogs last nite. but again, got more unfinished work, more backlogs!!!

突然的觉得，自己需要坚强，需要振作一些些了。。。

不可以再用各种理由让自己觉得很可怜，不可以再放纵自己沉溺在这种独自悲伤的情绪里了。最近这些日子以来，这种情绪腐蚀着我的心灵，麻痹着我的大脑，让我在做工的时候不能concentrate，好像在做梦。。。我自己都忍无可忍了!

于是，我决定要让自己坚强一些，振作一些，勇敢一些。

也许我还是抛不低，放不开。但从今以后，即使是受伤，也要微笑着面对！

不怕，不怕。

加油！ganbadene！！！

一首悲伤的情歌… 但是超好听。

为什么好听的歌总是那么悲伤？为什么悲伤的情歌总是好听的那么让人心醉和心碎？

Sissel - Summer snow [Download Here]

It’s summer snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that’s crying for you

If there were something not to change forever
We could feel it deep in our heart
Today is over with a million tears
Still everyone has a wish to live

Oh I do believe everlasting love
And destiny to meet you again
I feel a pain I can hardly stand
All I can do is loving you

It’s summer snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that’s crying for you

后来Google 了才知道，这首歌来自Japanese Drama 『Summer Snow (夏の雪)』的sound track

im a slave of myself. i cant control my own mind.

sometimes im too persisting. Some thing i juz cant let it go. Some stuff i juz cant put it aside.

sometimes im caring too much, im carrying too much. i cant make myself break away.

i still cant stop, even i know it’s going to be hurting badly, it’s going to make me unhappy or suffering.

i juz cant…

and i know, nobody is going to be able to help me, except myself

but still, i cant…