the X factor –=Every Little Thing =–

 
了了

[by me]

很久了
早就知道了
是不可以的了
是不可能的了
再清楚不过了

现在

我更明白了
我也更理解了

但是我更爱你了

然后我更安静了
然后也更沉默了
然后也不难过了

有一点想离开了
但又不知道该怎样离开了

了了，了了
…

有多么的喜欢她，在乎她，却无法表达，也不能表达；却无法做什么，也不能做什么

每次靠近她，觉得很痛苦
试着去疏远她，还是一样的痛苦

…

真的想离开了
真的不知道该怎样离开了

here are few updates i have done to my wordpress blog… in these few days…

1. Tried to upgrade my wordpress blog to V 2.1 Ella. But it seems that the 2.1 has some problems with my blog, mainly the display issues. Probably it’s caused by the blogpost content parser. So no choice, had to roll back to the older version. The process was a bit messy n painful. Had to overwrite the files to older version and restore the DB…well…
2. Changed the theme a little bit… mainly the header image and some css style
3. Switched my photo gallery to flickr. A bit sian with my old Gallery 2 gallery liao… and the flickr really provides a super niceeeee space to share photos
4. Installed in a flickr plugin AnotherFlickr for my wordpress blog. It calls the flickr API to get photos from my flickr account and displays random thumbnails in the sidebar of my blog. Try it on my sidebar! ==>
5. Installed another Awstats plugin, which reads the awstats logs in the server and presents some stats (such as the referrers, number of page views and number of visits etc…) in the wordpress blog
6. Installed Audio Player Wordpress plugin to embed a flash audio player in my blogpost. Can try HERE
7. Installed an interesting widget called meebo (sounds like the Mee Pok sia ). It’s some kind of web-based IM. With it ppl can send me online / offline messages. I will see those messages once i login to their site. And i can even chat with you guys through that if im sign in it. You can get a copy for your own blog HERE

wahhh… quite a number of stuffs sia! kind of free these few days, hehehehehehe

one of the love themes from the movie Moulin Rouge … LOVE it!!!

Ewan McGregor - Your Song

My gift is my song
And this one’s for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it’s done
Hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world

Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun’s been kind
While I wrote this song
It’s for people like you that
Keep it turned on

So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I’ve forgotten
If they’re green or they’re blue
Anyway the thing is well I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen

[Allesandro- opera]

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you’re in the world
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you’re in the world

the movie itself also damn soooo nice…

some taglines from the movie:

 

 
THE GREATEST THING YOU’LL EVER LEARN IS JUST TO LOVE
…AND BE LOVED IN RETURN

This Story Is About Truth…

This Story Is About Beauty…

This Story Is About Freedom…

Above All Things This Story Is About Love

Truth - Beauty - Freedom - Love

hey btw, Nicole Kidman is sooooo pretty sia, in the movie…

juz now talked to shinta on msn before going to zz…

saw she got “Bad Bad Day” in her nick so i asked… then she told me how the mister she-know-whom made her day bad… then somehow started to talk about something about relationship… and about me… then she told me 2 stories, which i think it’s nice to write down…

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few hundred of words censored here, hehehehehe…
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Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
i am really the stupid kind… still believe in those things that could only happen in the movies… maybe watched too much…
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
hahahaha….
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
herm…i guess sometimes it does happen in real life..
Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
hehehehe, but im not lucky enough to meet that kind of ger…yet, HAHAHHAHA…
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
ya…its just finding the right girl..
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
there is this drama that i watched..
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
korean drama..
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
the girl likes the guy..but the guy ask the girl to find her special one..
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
the girl said that in this world there is no special one..
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
2 ordinay ppl meet and make their life special..
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
i mean “love
Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
TRUE!!!
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
haha
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
i thot its very sweet
Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
yalor…
Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
very sweet, heheh
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
yaaaa…
Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
NICE one…thanks for telling this story! HAHA
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
i have another one…
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
i watched from my girl..i think..
shin-ta: Bad Bad Day! Where have all my Confidence gone to? says:
she said that u can pretend to like someone but you cannot pretend not to like someone..
Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
EXACTLY…
Hui … that’s not the beginning of the end … says:
good one! think i can have a nice sleep with these 2 stories, hehehhe…
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…

in this world there is no special one. 2 ordinay ppl meet and love makes their lifes special..
这个世界上其实并没有你要寻找得那个特别的他/她。当两个普通的陌生人相遇了，相爱了，爱情让他们彼此的生命从此都变得很特别。

u can pretend to like someone but you cannot pretend not to like someone..
你可以假装喜欢一个你不喜欢的人，你却永远也不可以假装不喜欢一个你喜欢的人

was reading Dictionary.com’s 2006 Words of the Year page…then saw this one…

quote from Dictionary.com

…supposedly the longest word in a dictionary, an artificial word said to mean a lung disease caused by the inhalation of silica dust…

Pronunciation Key: [noo-muh-noh-uhl-truh-mahy-kruh-skop-ik-sil-i-koh-vol-key-noh-koh-nee-oh-sis, nyoo-]

can anyone actually pronounce it correclty & nonstop?

yesterday spotted this “Pull and Bear” store at vivo when hanging out with friends there… hey! a NICE shop!!!

heard it’s a spanish label… they got nice t-shirts… errrr.. the price of the t-shirts there quite reasonable, compared to other similar brands here in singapore… they also have NICE and CHEAP jeans!!!

was so tempted to buy… but i held the temptation cos got enough shopping for the month already…

here is the website for Pull and Bear: http://www.pullbear.com/… quite nice website also… ehhhh, the background music not bad!

*** Pull and Bear stores are available at:

• Ngee Ann City #B2-04.
• VivoCity #01-28A.

first day in the office in the new year… not reallie much to do then start to think of this, think of that…

putting “self de-construction in progress” in my msn nick, which leads the following conversation between shin n me…

S h i N says :
what is self de-construction?
Hui - self de-construction in progress… says :
hahah, how to say ahh… maybe it’s “to analyse myself”
Hui - self de-construction in progress… says :
sometimes i find that i not reallie understand myself… about what i reallie want
S h i N says :
maybe theres no need to understand….
S h i N says :
just go with the flow..
Hui - self de-construction in progress… says :
ya… maybe

well, what she said is 100% true…

ya…just follow the flow. but i have been waiting, n waiting… duno for how long… there is NO clue at all… nobody is giving me a clue…

shall i just continue waiting, n waiting… or die-hard trying instead?

part of the conversation between Seth n Maggie in the movie City of Angels…

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…

an angel,
he knows no fear, no pain, no hunger, no taste…
he doesn’t know how it feels when touching someone.
he hears music in the sunrise.
but he fell in love, then fell to be moral,
giving up his existence as an angel,
and eternity,
just to know the feeling of touching her.
cos he loves her…

Sarah McLachlan - Angel

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here