the X factor –=Every Little Thing =–

but somehow i just thought the thing through… i also duno how or why… it’s just like im suddenly inspired by something (which i duno what it is…) or something just brightening up in my mind…

sometimes when ur heart is peaceful n quiet enuff, you can actually see further and clearer… there is one chinese idiom to describe this: 『宁静致远』

i think now my heart is just in this status…

i can finally move on liao, i think…

sometimes i questioning myself… do i really love her? or yet she is just the nearest?

i duno…

i only konw that…

everytime i think about the truth that it’s impossible to be with her, some unidentifiable pain flows out of the bottom of my heart and fills it up until it’s full, then overflows, then floods all over with the blood, slowly slowly…