十月，就要来了，
突然有点怀念起十年前的这段日子。。。
十年前的这个时候，大概是夏秋之交了吧，早晚已有了些许的沁人的凉意。
喜欢那样的季节。
十年前的我，17岁。
那个时候的我，大概还在每天的埋头苦读吧。。。
十月将要到来的日子，对那时候的我来说，有些特别。
曾经很喜欢的小蝶的生日就在十月一号。所以每次十月快要到的时候，心里总是特别的忐忑。先是想着要用省下来的不多的零用钱给她买什么生日礼物。好不容易买到礼物之后，又在头痛怎样送给她，然后不安的猜测她会不会接受。。。
十年前的一切，就像是一张淡淡泛黄的旧的黑白照片。平时不知道把它丢在了哪个角落。然而在偶尔收拾记忆的时候，那张泛黄的黑白照片不经意间轻轻的掉落在面前，捡起来一看，当初的种种苦涩和悲伤，都已褪色不见，但看着照片，还是会淡淡的会心一笑。
could say that i was growing up with “doraemon”. 
even now i still keep a set of the comics 
still can remember some of the stories… everytime no matter how unlucky and dumb Nobita is, what kind of trouble he has created, doraemon would always be there to help him with magic tools from his little pocket.
im wondering…
maybe sometimes everybody also need a doraemon… though we are not as unlucky and dumb as Nobita… you know, just sometimes…
where is my doraemon? maybe i should also have one, at least deep in the heart
在933上听到了2首歌，蛮喜欢的
久违的许茹芸，现在再听一遍她的『依然爱你』，『独角戏』或者『泪海』，还是会和当初一样的感动。
『好听』又是那么一首『芸式情歌』，给你许多感动。
苏打绿则是最近半年多来的新进乐队，这首『小情歌』以前就在MTV Chinese上听了很多遍了，真的是地地道道的小情歌，很清新的曲子和嗓音（虽然主唱的那个男孩子有点娘），仿佛道出了少年不知愁滋味的纯纯涩涩的初恋…
haiiizzzz… so sian…
it’s like… all of sudden i lose interest to anything… dun want to do anything, dun want to go anywhere
no sad no pain no hope no desire…
even music doesn’t sound as nice as it used to be
life just becomes so sian… soooo siannn
好像是洗成黑白的照片，然而却一再一再的漂白
习惯性的wordless
也不知道是不是自欺欺人的无所谓
也变得有点麻木
maybe, numbness is no better than the pain… at least, pain, still can feel…
童安格 - 爱与哀愁
…
点一根烟,
喝一杯酒,
能醉多久?
醒来后依然是我.
…
continued from Part I
[ dedicate my this entry to her… ]
everytime my friends ask me… how come, u still single arhhh? 你到底喜欢什么样的女生啊?
hmmmmm… 我到底喜欢什么样的女生啊?
我就喜欢我所喜欢的那个女生那样的女生!! so actually there is no “my type”… if i like someone, she that type is EXACTLY my type…
i like whatever she has…
i like whatever she likes…
i like whatever hair style she has…
i like whatever makeup she puts on…
i like whatever dress she wears…
i like whatever hand bag she carries…
i like whatever way she is…
i like whatever she says… even rude words…
i like whatever she…
if she is happy i would be happy also…
if she is unhappy i would be unhappy also…
if she is in bad mood i would be in bad mood also…
if she is feeling sad i would feel sad also…
if she is feeling sian i would feel sian also…
if she…
everytime i see her face
everytime i hear her voice
my heart would just melt down…
everytime…
i want to give sooooooooooooo much to her…
i want to do soooooooooooooo many things for her…
i want to show soooooooooooo much i care about her…
i want to…
so LOVE or NOT love…
in this sense… i think i DO
but but, i was taught that… love is just NOT in THIS WAY… not in this way…
i know, i know sia…
but somehow i just thought the thing through… i also duno how or why… it’s just like im suddenly inspired by something (which i duno what it is…) or something just brightening up in my mind…
sometimes when ur heart is peaceful n quiet enuff, you can actually see further and clearer… there is one chinese idiom to describe this: 『宁静致远』
i think now my heart is just in this status…
i can finally move on liao, i think…
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